When gamers cry…an NPC is Born.

Do gamers cry?

Do they feel anything for their fellow players?

Who else but another gamer can understand some of the things we go through? YouMadBro? Dodging Trolls. Hours spent getting through dungeons to get that slot item or crafting the best gear! Making it to the top of the PVP lists! Mad skillz bro!

I read an article linked to Twitter today about a little girl who was honored by “MechWarrior” after she lost her fight with cancer.  A specially designed ‘mech chassie’ you can purchase for $10 was created. The money goes to the Canadian Cancer Society ( here is the link to the article http://t.co/hP1wveNIbI).

I took the time to read through the forums and found dozens of comments from gamers of all walks who shared their story of a friend, loved one, co-worker, who had been honored by their game of choice in a similar manner.

I myself have experienced 2 unexpected deaths of fellow gamers. One of which was a very dear friend of mine who I had never met in person but considered to be family.

His name was Bilin. (His given name was Chris.) He has an NPC named after him in the MMO game Dark Age of Camelot. h-Bilinhttp://camelot.allakhazam.com/db/search.html?cmob=3944

He died suddenly when his gall bladder burst. My husband and I received a phone call from his sister telling us the news. Our number had been in his favorites listed as Family.

The other was a guild member in World of Warcraft. Our guild was always thought of as our gamer family so when someone from his family took the time to log in and explain to the rest of us about his sudden passing it was like hearing a cousin or aunt had died. I was grateful that they understood how important this extended family was enough to inform us of his passing.

We RIP’ed his characters Information in the Guild Roster letting future members know his status and informing future guild leads to leave them on the roster.

I hope the the friends and family who don’t game learn what a wonderful community of people there are that play video games. That we are willing to come together in support of each other when times are difficult. Being a virtual shoulder to lean on during times of grief.

Most people see just a bunch of lazy boys sitting eating chips, doing nothing but staring at a computer or TV all day long. They don’t catch the social interaction that happened, because until just recently most of that was done through text.

Regardless of what game you happen to play, if you learn someone is also a gamer, your ideas about them shift. Gamers come from all walks of life (Take the woman who ran for political office who was a WoW player). So before you get the idea in your head that we are all lazy slobs who don’t have jobs and are too fat,ugly, stupid for society to want us, remember we are people (and some studies show we are SMART people!) Flesh and Blood Humans.

Video games have been a social outlet for the social outcast to the celebrity. The bonds forged in the Field of Bone on  Kunark, or the Triumph of Defeating DeathWing are made in the fires of a Dwarven Forge! Allowing people to be who they are and not judged by how they look or what job they have.

We are Gamers! We are Family!

So, Do gamers cry?

Yes, we do.

Do gamers care about flesh and blood human beings?

Yes, we do.

Racism/Sexism in Nerd/Geek Culture

I know what you’re thinking.

What?! No way are nerds/geeks racist/sexist!

Are you sure about that? I know that those public figures in our awesome fandom of geeky goodness all preach abolish hate and love thy human next to you.

Take a moment and think about racism/sexism and the last Con you where at?

Superman, Batman, Wolverine, Spiderman, Captain America, Ironman, Wonderwoman, BlackWidow, Storm. (How many of you thought that a Black Green Lantern was weird? I thought it was cool and mentally High Five’ed them for it.)

I am not saying that we should reinvent any of these Iconic figures into the “Black Version” or the ‘Chick Version” That can end up just as insulting as saying something rude and bigoted.

What we can do is ignore color/sex as we move forward. (And I am not just talking to the White Guy in his Grandmas basement either. I am talking to Every Person who claims the Title of Geek/Nerd/Dork/Human.)

Background, Life, CHARACTER. Focus there instead of highlighting the things that scream RACE. Search for things that are common across the board. (There are just as many absent white baby daddies out there. And just as many  picket fence Black Families.)

I love watching BBC programming because they have decided that it does not matter what color a person is or what their sexual orientation is. What matters is WHO a person is. Doctor Who, Primeval, Torchwood, Being Human. All these are Big Hitters for BBCAmerica television and the biggest thing I notice is that Race is Never a Problem.

What is a Problem, In my opinion is when people make it a problem.

Now I know that is a touchy subject these day but Ya know what? Get over it! Both Sides! There shouldn’t be Sides. White/Black/Yellow/Purple/Gay/Straight. It should never come into the picture. EVER.

There is Culture. Certainly there is a difference there. Maybe that is why Britain has less issue with color on TV than America does. We like to think of ourselves as a ‘melting pot of culture’ while still clinging desperately to what makes us unique. What makes us who we are. (  I am sure Britain has there share of ‘culture issues’ but I don’t live there so I don’t know.)

Maybe that should be the focus of some of the New Hero. From Great Adversity Comes Great Hero. Overcoming Terrible Things is a common theme among Superheros. Maybe the new heroes should ignore those things we seem to keep focusing on that make us diverse and start highlighting the things that make us all HUMAN.

My Favorite show for abolishing Race is Star Trek. Where RACE is E-Raced and Culture Is Highlighted. Can we be more like That?star-trek-tos


Plot/Pants Eh? Thanks @MikeWellsAuthor

Long day on little sleep, Can feel myself winding down.

Feel accomplished however with 1,079 words of new idea that is Very clear 😀 DigitalQuillInk

Should be an easy write (until 30k words where I beat my head against the desk asking God Why is this CRAP?!)

However, it should be easy to rewrite as well because I actually have plot outline (GASP!). So would be refining and perfecting.

With that said, I have been struggling with the rewrite of Death’s Hope simply because I sat down and wrote whatever came to mind for a month. Granted it was all about the same character, but there was no order. No reason behind the things that were happening beyond “Hey! This will really F*** up her day!” I have a dozen great scenes full of action and mayhem but nothing binding them all together.

So the task at hand for that book has become, TA DA! PLOTTING!

Thanks to the helpful tweet of a Mr. Mike Wells I found his Advice For Writers and  a wonderful bit of learning entitled “A ‘Secret’ Formula for Creating a Short Synopsis For Your Book.”

I have now managed to come up with a reason the main character is suffering. I even have a bad guy (or do I?) who is behind the mayhem. I have a way for her to get out of said troubles but it will require some serious soul-searching on her part. (I love stories of personal growth and discovery)

But! (You knew there was a but…) there is SOOO much more going on! I ended up with a tragically long synopsis of All the mayhem (ALL THE THINGS!) that I felt smothered by it.

I needed to get away from Hope and the world of the Pantheon for a while. I had stopped writing anything new because I was working so hard on finishing something I had already started.  Feelings of guilt would overwhelm me because I love this 50k of words and want to make them into a story people will actually want to read.

I am happy to say that again Mike saved the day. I started writing synopsis for the next two books I want to write involving Hope and the Crew. I am excited that they will have more focus and less mayhem when they are started.

I also managed to start a new book idea. Not sure if it will be short story or full novel. It has a great synopsis. The outline is coming smoothly and best of all?! I Don’t Feel Guilty!

Hope is not on Deadline. No one is tapping their foot at me waiting on the manuscript. I can ‘shelf’ her and move on to a different project that is better thought out.

The quote “Writers write.” (No I don’t remember who said it. Yes I am terrible for not remembering. Comment if you do please! I want to give credit where it is due!) is something I need to keep above my desk.

If you are not on deadline and a book is holding you back, it may just be that you are not in a place to understand what the characters need from you. Take a step back from it. Write something else. It can be another book about the same people. Or an entirely different genre! Just WRITE!

Don’t Let the Vampires Bite! Werewolves are Awesome!

Making time, Like a Time Lord!

Being a writer is all about making time.

That’s a funny statement; Making Time.

Are writers actually Time Lords that have been abandoned at birth only to rediscover their identity through the printed word?

Really, we have all of time and space at our fingertips. The only thing holding us back is our own lack if imagination! Each book is a TARDIS and every reader is a Companion. Are you ready to join the Ponds?

We actually have it one up on The Doctor. Writers are not limited to one Dimension. Alternate Universe needs exploring? We are there on the front lines, pen in hand to bring you the latest and greatest stories of daring and passion from realms beyond.

Making Time to write can seem pretty daunting. There are days that feel like everyone and everything is out to get in your way. The kids will have a meltdown (Worse than a nuclear power plant), the phone will ring every time you sit down at your computer, the spouse will choose that moment to need you (You dirty mind!).

Regardless of what may distract you or get in your way, the only way your book or script will get finished (or started) will be if you MAKE TIME. Even if it is only a few minutes between stuffing your face with a bagel in the morning before you run out the door to sit in traffic (Take a voice recorder and talk your book out while you sit behind that semi on the interstate!) or before you head to bed after the kids are all settled in.

The idea is to be putting words on a blank page (digital pages count). Find out if Word Count keeps you excited or if counting the number of Pages works better. Whatever you need to do to continue to pour out the Universe in your mind. (Otherwise you may explode and I don’t think two universes can exist in the same time and space.)Image

Next time you open a book, remember; They are much bigger on the inside!

The Pantheon Series.

I started a blog dedicated to my books called The Pantheon Series. http://www.thepantheonseries.wordpress.com

I am hoping to make it a combination of Platform for my novels in that series as well as a place to ‘dump’ ideas, getting a feel for what readers are interested in.

While the story is mine, I am not ashamed to take advise from others. (I would make a terrible writer if that was the case. Except my husband. I can’t seem to take criticism from him without getting cranky…)

I’ll be posting journal entries from the characters as they develop, maps, pictures that inspire me and other tidbits for would be fans and anyone interested in following the series as it develops.

That will be the place I post any updates on Death’sHope as I prepare to launch crowd funding. I will also make available a way to donate to the cause directly from the blog for those who wish.

Please take a moment to stop by and follow the blog. If you like what you see, comment and spread the word!

Thanks to everyone who supports me!

I survived the #SharkNado !!

It was incredible! Sharks flying through the air! People running and screaming, blood flowing through the streets.

Lucky for me there was much advanced warning from folks on twitter such as Wil and Anne Wheaton, Craig Engler from SyFy, @RedCross and well as many others. I don’t know if I would have survived without their brave reporting on the situation.

In the aftermath all we can really do is think about those that were lost and stock up on tornado stopping home made propane bombs!


Ok, so I don’t live anywhere near SharkNado alley. You have to admit that it was one hell of a ride if you where anywhere near twitter last night. The morning feed is full of exclamations about what happened and how this TV movie became such a hit on the Internet.
I didn’t actually get to watch the silly thing until after the craze had passed. My local cable company was a few hours behind the rest of the world.

I sat and watched the sharks hit the chainsaw at 9pm pacific. I wasn’t disappointed. It was every bit as cheesy and B-movie that I expected.

If you missed the phenomenon, tune in to SyFy again on Thursday July 18 7/6c for another chance.

More words! Less Crap!

Another day goes by and I am left wondering “WTF?” Where did it go? How did I only write a few hundred words rather than a few thousand?

Then I remember how the day went…

Woke up at 2pm (I didn’t get to bed until after 5am due to children with backward days) The house was in a shambles because the boys were given free reign. (To avoid getting into more personal matters I will just say the hub was busy.)

After getting things back in order, I was able to kick the kids outside and sit down to look at my computer screen. I organized my thoughts and figured out where and what to write next.

The children then burst in the door arguing with each other about who was suppose to do what and it’s not my fault he did it. Great. Take a few minutes to deal with that…

Realize I need to get dog food.

Trip to the store. (Won $2 playing a scratch ticket!)

Get home groceries away, kids outside. Ready to write!

Twitter has some great feeds about agents and their wish lists that distracted me. OK now back in the zone.

More kids drama.

And here I am! At least I am getting SOMETHING written down today.

Ok, I will be fair and say that I have managed to get a bit further in where Death’s Hope is going regardless of the lack of actual words being written. That, I guess, is a step forward in the process of writing a book and being a busy mother of 6.

More words, Less Crap. Spend time writing. Less time contemplating the crap. Even if all you get down for the day is to complain about not having written anything for the day, Hey! You got WORDS!

What keeps you from writing? How do you get through it to get the words down?

The Hard Part

The manuscript is written. 50k words of story. Now comes the hard part.

Rewrite. Edit. Rewrite. Edit. When does it stop? I have heard other writers say that the rewrite never does. Part of being a writer is knowing when to send it out. When it is good enough. Some say that even when the book is in print and shelved that they felt it could have been better.

I have learned that aside from needing to become your own worst enemy about making sure you get your butt in a chair and write every day, the hardest part is getting said butt into said chair and tearing apart the words you have already written!

I am a pantser. Which means that the 50k I have written started the second I wrote the first sentence. There was no plot outline, no plan. Just wrote what came into my head at the time. This is a nightmare for rewrite but amazing for creativity!

Now I am struggling to weave together all this great story into something that makes sense. Creative though it may be there is no flow. There are things that don’t make sense. Ends happen that never had a beginning. Characters talk or speak to each other in ways they really wouldn’t at that point in the story. It is like being a time traveler and trying to unwind lives that have gotten terribly mangled in their timeline.

The other issue I am having with Death’s Hope is that I started the story as Erotica Urban Fantasy. As I work through it I realize that these people would not be sleeping with each other yet. There is too much baggage between them that they need to work out (And one character doesn’t even realize she has yet). There is another character who was minor in the first draft who is starting to shine and come into himself in the second. He might be a major player in book one where I thought he wouldn’t be until at least book two.

So the hardest part of being a writer for me? Writing every day. Finishing what I have started. Organizing the lives and timeline to make a story that flows from Point A to Point B without forgetting to wrap up Sub-Plot 1 and making sure that there is a close to the story while leaving things open to continue on to Point C in the next book! (Long Exhale here!)

What is the hardest part of being a writer for you? Are you a pantser or a plotter? Both?

Game Review: NeverWinter

Ah NeverWinter.

I have only played until about level 10. A dwarf cleric and a Teisling Sorceress. I have not grouped with anyone yet. I guess I really can’t give an accurate review if I have not played the game for longer than a few hours.

Which brings me to say that it just has not grabbed my attention as much as I thought it would.

I adore that the game is Free to Play! On my limited budget, that is fantastic. (Try paying a monthly sub for 2 accounts with 6 kids and a new writers income or lack there-of!)

Maybe I have just not given the game a chance. Or maybe my days of Video Gaming are coming to a close. I don’t know.

The graphics are alright. I guess I expected a bit more but for a F2P they are not bad. Gameplay seems smooth and I have not trouble getting through dungeons solo on either character I play.
As a F2P you on get 2 character slots available but all the race/class options are there. (Except a new race option that will be coming. That shows up as a shadow-figure.)
The amount of lore and storyline available in this game is staggering! You can spend days just reading things. The voice acting is excellent making it easy to get immersed in the world.
For fans of the NeverWinter games and book series, it is a treat to walk around in a free play environment visiting places you have read about. The designers did a great job bringing the vision of the writers to life.

I look forward to getting further in the game and seeing some of the other areas available to explore.

I will be playing off and on as I work on my novel. I use it as incentive to finish my word counts. 😀

Was this helpful? Have you played NeverWinter? What did you think of the game? Leave your comments!